As I was on my way home from work today, I was reflecting on my life these days. I was debating on whether or not I should pull over to make a video or just wait to get home to post on my blog. In the midst of it, one of my close friends who I love dearly messaged me & I felt led to share my thoughts with her. After she listened to my message on WhatsApp, she shared what a blessing it was to her & I give God all of the glory. If you believe this post blesses you, please don’t hold back from sharing it with others who could possibly be blessed by it too.
noun – 1. the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another.
verb – 1. undergo or cause to undergo a process or period of transition.
synonyms: change, passage, move, transformation, conversion, metamorphosis, alteration, handover, changeover.
This past week has been an emotional roller coaster for me as we are just 8 weeks away from meeting our little prince or princess. It’s becoming more & more difficult to rest at night due to the tossing & turning, having to empty my bladder every 3 hours or the most annoying non-stop itching on my arms & legs – which I find to be the worst of them all. Not only has it been physically overwhelming but also emotionally & mentally. I have a 9 year old son who I adore & who has taught me the true definition of unconditional love. If I can be honest, it hasn’t been easy for me when I think of how our family of 3 will soon become a family of 4. One of the worries I’ve had since the beginning of my pregnancy is, “Will my son feel like he’s been replaced? Or will he feel less important?” – I know those are silly questions to even ask but this is what occurs when I begin to overanalyze & worry so much about the what if’s. My husband & I have had conversations with our son plenty of times explaining how our love for him will NEVER change & he looks at us like – “Duhh!” – LOL!! Clearly, the one who’s buggin’ is ME! 😩
I remember being with someone who I swore up & down I could help change but instead it only sucked the life out of me in the process. I was so focused on helping him that I lost sight of me & what God was trying to do in my life. I knew deep down it was time to let go but I refused to. I felt I could speed up the process by “helping” God. I would ask family & friends to pray for him. I would send him links to all these different sermons/messages I found on YouTube. Send him scriptures. I would pray & negotiate with God – Yes! I said negotiate – I would tell God I’d do this or that if only He would change his heart & help him see things for what they truly were but the one who needed to see things for what they were & who needed a heart change was ME!! Of course my ex did also but I was much more concerned about him that I didn’t realize how I needed to focus on me & my relationship with God. Here I was entertaining a relationship that I clearly knew (but refused to accept) wasn’t pleasing God.
This morning, my husband posted this quote below –
I couldn’t help but reply with what I believe to be true because sometimes we get our own hopes up about things that are not even part of God’s plans & then get mad at Him when it doesn’t come to pass. I believe God hears ALL of our prayers – even the ones that are embedded in our hearts but we can’t find the words to say out loud. However, He only answers according to His will, not our own & at His perfect timing. Sometimes His answer is, “Yes”, “No” or “Not Yet” but regardless of what His answer is, we must always ask for His will to be done, not ours. As I commented, I was listening to My Testimony by Marvin Sapp on Pandora & I was encouraged to share one of mine.
Oftentimes God allows certain situations to occur so that we would seek more of Him. Whenever things seem to be out of our control, it’s because it is. And the only One who has the control to make it right is … Him! He wants us to understand that only He is capable of turning our situation around & making them into something great if only we could let go of the wheel & allow Him to take control.
Have you ever found yourself desperate to be saved from a situation you can’t seem to get out of? No matter how much you kick & scream. No matter how much you pray. No matter how many people are praying for you. It just seems like the light at the end of the tunnel seems further & further. Maybe you’re struggling to make ends meet. Maybe you lost a loved one, friend, family member, or a child. Maybe you just received unexpected news. Maybe you’ve fallen into a depression & you have no strength to keep fighting. Maybe you’re going through heartbreak & you’re desperately waiting for the day you can wake up without anxiety or that emptiness in your heart that makes you want to stay in bed all day/night or the kind of pain that you can feel at your fingertips. Maybe you’re not where you thought you’d be by now. I get it. I really do! I’ve been there too & still experience all types of trials & tribulations. These words are to encourage me also!
Don’t ever think that anything you’ve been through or may be going through is without a purpose. I wish I could say things are going to be ok but I can’t because they may just get worse before it gets better but I PROMISE you – it is going to be FAR GREATER than you ever prayed for. Many of us pray for God to deliver us from the hurt & pain – it’s not that He can’t or that He won’t – He is just using what was meant to break us to make us even stronger & wiser. To stretch our faith in Him. To strengthen us for our next battle. #StillWeRise 🙌💪
Until next time, many blessings & much love – XO
“She focused on God. He did the same. God gave them each other.” ✝️💕
1-27-16 After waiting a year and six months… OUR FIRST KISS 💕
Don’t be fooled when I met this man I was a broken, beat down, lost soul…I had given my heart to yet another “boy” (age does not make you a man) who did not value me… Once he had me where he wanted me, I was manipulated, used, and abused…Time after time I would “walk away” from this relationship just to run right back… I knew deep inside that I needed to close the door on this toxic relationship, but deception (the enemies tool) would distort my vision, and I continued to believe “things would change”…Things def did not change.. However what did change was my decision to finally cry out to God for his help ( sad that I placed him last) I clearly remember kneeling in my bathroom hysterical crying/yelling telling God he can finally have his way in my life…I no longer wanted to go through life without his hand… Once I gave God control he was able to begin his work in my heart and mind (God is a gentleman he will not force himself on anyone. He allows the choice to be ours)
Jesus said that many are called but few are chosen. I believe that God changes hearts. It is God that puts the desire in a person’s heart that causes them to want to follow Him. He’s the Author & Finisher of our faith. This can be very encouraging to us who are praying desperately for ourselves or for loved ones.