Transformation ๐ŸŒป๐Ÿ™Œ

Sometimes Facebook will remind you of some great memories & other times not so great. 2010 was a year full of hurt, emptiness, insecurity, confusion & brokenness. This picture is a reflection of that. Behind that pose, little dress ๐Ÿ™ˆ & fake smile was a lost soul who was crying out for help. I was engaged but yet entertaining another man. I would care after my son all week & I would go out to dance & drink about every other weekend. It was my definition of being free & having fun. ๐Ÿ˜ฃ I had been lied to & cheated on prior to this & I just became heartless. ๐Ÿ’”

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Heart to Heart – Yara


I was born straight into a broken home. One parent was diagnosed with schizophrenia, battled demons (literally), depression, and drug addiction. The other parent abused prescription drugs and I suspect molestation and who had absolutely no idea what is was to love herself, let alone a child. My mom was 23 when she had me. I donโ€™t know the entire story and I am sure I never will, but shortly thereafter โ€“ she became a single mom. My dad lived in Puerto Rico for a couple years, but my grandma (his mom) would pick me up sometimes so that I could have a relationship with his side of the family. I still remember the day he came back to NJ and they introduced me to him. I was so confused, and at roughly 6 years old, had no idea how to even feel. It was fun while it lasted. But because my mom and dad could never get along, my mom turned into this โ€œbaby mamaโ€ and completely just removed him from my life all together. My mom was a workaholic, and although when I was really young she spent a bit more time with me, as I got older, she would stay at work for about 12 hours and even when she was home, it was obvious she didnโ€™t care much about connecting.

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My Testimony

This morning, my husband posted this quote below โ€“

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I couldnโ€™t help but reply with what I believe to be true because sometimes we get our own hopes up about things that are not even part of Godโ€™s plans & then get mad at Him when it doesnโ€™t come to pass. I believe God hears ALL of our prayers โ€“ even the ones that are embedded in our hearts but we canโ€™t find the words to say out loud. However, He only answers according to His will, not our own & at His perfect timing. Sometimes His answer is, โ€œYesโ€, โ€œNoโ€ or โ€œNot Yetโ€ but regardless of what His answer is, we must always ask for His will to be done, not ours. As I commented, I was listening to My Testimony by Marvin Sapp on Pandora & I was encouraged to share one of mine.

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Heart to Heart – Monique

“She focused on God. He did the same. God gave them each other.” โœ๏ธ๐Ÿ’•

1-27-16 After waiting a year and six months… OUR FIRST KISS ๐Ÿ’•

Don’t be fooled when I met this man I was a broken, beat down, lost soul…I had given my heart to yet another “boy” (age does not make you a man) who did not value me… Once he had me where he wanted me, I was manipulated, used, and abused…Time after time I would “walk away” from this relationship just to run right back… I knew deep inside that I needed to close the door on this toxic relationship, but deception (the enemies tool) would distort my vision, and I continued to believe “things would change”…Things def did not change.. However what did change was my decision to finally cry out to God for his help ( sad that I placed him last) I clearly remember kneeling in my bathroom hysterical crying/yelling telling God he can finally have his way in my life…I no longer wanted to go through life without his hand… Once I gave God control he was able to begin his work in my heart and mind (God is a gentleman he will not force himself on anyone. He allows the choice to be ours)

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