When you feel like giving up!

Ever felt like throwing in the towel?! Ever felt tired of fighting?! Ever felt like your faith & hope in God was literally hanging from a thread & all you wanted to do was give up?!

As I shared on my previous post, 2019 was by far the most challenging year I’ve had & not a day went by that I didn’t wake up feeling anxious, tired & defeated. Every day felt like it was on repeat.

Everyday consisted of waking up at 6am to prepare a bottle of milk for my 2 yr old before I got myself ready for the day, make sure my oldest was up & out the door by 8am, I would drop the baby off at the sitter while Edison dropped our oldest son off at school & I would head to work. I would wait for my oldest to walk to my job from school, go on my lunch break at 3pm, pick up the baby at the sitter & stop to get them something to eat before dropping them both off to my grandmother. There goes my hour of lunch only to get out of work at 7pm, 8pm or even 9pm sometimes. Once I got home, I was lucky if I had 10 mins in the shower with zero interruptions. It would be around 11pm by the time I finally hit the bed & do it all over again the very next day.

Read More »

“Take me deeper, Lord!”

I came across this song today on my playlist & I was reminded of the day I heard it for the first time. I had this song on repeat for 2 days straight because I resonated with it so much. That same day I had taken some time to journal & I remember telling God, “Take me deeper, Lord.” I desired to know Him deeply & intimately. I felt as though I had only known Him on a surface level but I wanted to go deeper. Mannnnn, I didn’t realize how bold of a statement that was when I made it.

I was anticipating for 2019 to be an amazing year despite how 2018 ended but instead it was the most challenging year thus far. It wasn’t until recently that I felt a shift finally take place in my mind, my heart & in my spirit.

Read More »

Long Time No Post

Hi Family โ€“

Itโ€™s been a while and so much has happened since my last post but I will share a few posts in the near future letting you know all about it but for now I wanted to share the link of a movie my sis and I watched yesterday that truly touched us. I wish I can elaborate but I donโ€™t want to spoil it for you. I will share my thoughts on a future post but I pray it blesses you as it blessed us – Same Kind of Different as Me.

Since I’m here, let me also share a series I’ve been following for the past 4 weeks titled โ€œPlanted Not Buriedโ€ by Pastor Mike Todd. ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ Man-O-Man!! What a series this is!

If you havenโ€™t seen his past series titled “Grace Like A Flood! WOWZERZ!!! Thatโ€™s all Iโ€™m gonna say! This man is truly anointed and has been such a blessing to me!

Okay okay, let me get back to work. Happy Tuesday!! TGIT!!

โœŒ๐Ÿผ & ๐Ÿ’“,

Jen ๐ŸŒป

The Come Up

POWERFUL WORD!! ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’•

If you have lost hope about something you’ve been praying so much for or you buried a dream/hope/vision/goal in the ground because you couldn’t see how it would come to pass & you thought you’re better off letting it go – this message is for YOU!!

It spoke directly to my heart & I know that I’m not the only one who needs to hear this message.

Transformation ๐ŸŒป๐Ÿ™Œ

Sometimes Facebook will remind you of some great memories & other times not so great. 2010 was a year full of hurt, emptiness, insecurity, confusion & brokenness. This picture is a reflection of that. Behind that pose, little dress ๐Ÿ™ˆ & fake smile was a lost soul who was crying out for help. I was engaged but yet entertaining another man. I would care after my son all week & I would go out to dance & drink about every other weekend. It was my definition of being free & having fun. ๐Ÿ˜ฃ I had been lied to & cheated on prior to this & I just became heartless. ๐Ÿ’”

Read More »

But I “love” him.

As I’ve mentioned many times in the past, I was in a relationship with my ex for almost 5 years. A year into the relationship he lied about being at his sister’s house. The truth was that he was at a “strip club”. Who knows!?! There was no need for him to lie unless he had something to hide (obviously). I didn’t forgive him right away but eventually I let it go because I “loved” him. As women (as some men do as well), we overlook many of the red flags that are being presented to us early on in the relationship only to set ourselves up for failure in the long run.

Read More »

How much longer?

How much longer until I finally get a break? How much longer until I find someone I can build a future with? How much longer until my heart finally heals? How much longer until I find a job? How much longer until the person I love & care for will make the decision to do right for them? How much longer until I see the desires of my heart come to pass?

Read More »