But I “love” him.

As I’ve mentioned many times in the past, I was in a relationship with my ex for almost 5 years. A year into the relationship he lied about being where he was at (a strip club). There was no need for him to lie unless he had something to hide (obviously). I didn’t forgive him right away but eventually I let it go because I “loved” him. As women (as some men do as well), we overlook many of the red flags that are being presented to us early on in the relationship only to set ourselves up for failure in the long run.

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How much longer?

How much longer until I finally get a break? How much longer until I find someone I can build a future with? How much longer until my heart finally heals? How much longer until I find a job? How much longer until the person I love & care for will make the decision to do right for them? How much longer until I see the desires of my heart come to pass?

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Heart to Heart – Yara

I was born straight into a broken home. One parent was diagnosed with schizophrenia, battled demons (literally), depression, and drug addiction. The other parent abused prescription drugs and I suspect molestation and who had absolutely no idea what is was to love herself, let alone a child. My mom was 23 when she had me. I don’t know the entire story and I am sure I never will, but shortly thereafter – she became a single mom. My dad lived in Puerto Rico for a couple years, but my grandma (his mom) would pick me up sometimes so that I could have a relationship with his side of the family. I still remember the day he came back to NJ and they introduced me to him. I was so confused, and at roughly 6 years old, had no idea how to even feel. It was fun while it lasted. But because my mom and dad could never get along, my mom turned into this “baby mama” and completely just removed him from my life all together. My mom was a workaholic, and although when I was really young she spent a bit more time with me, as I got older, she would stay at work for about 12 hours and even when she was home, it was obvious she didn’t care much about connecting.

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🌿 My breastfeeding experience #FedIsBest 💙🍼

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#Repost from IG  – ​🌿 Y E S T E R D A Y #latepost & lengthy too 😉 – A week ago my entire life changed. I am now a mother of two precious little boys 👦👶. This past week has been filled with all kinds of emotions. Though I am now completely filled with joy, I can’t say the same was true for the last several days. I found myself falling into what felt like a deep depression.

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Covenant Keepers 🕇💑

My heart is overjoyed with love and gratitude. Last night was a true blessing all around – from beginning to end. I’ve been blessed to have such amazing people in my life. Thank you so much Covenant Keepers for showering us with your love, prayers and blessings. #SweetSurprise 💕👣🎁

💑 #CovenantKeepers (CK) is a Life Group for married, engaged or courting couples who are intentional about having the Lord Jesus be the Center of their relationships. 🕇 We meet once a month and was originally facilitated by such an amazing couple (David & Kenya Greene) who desire that each person will know the will of God for their marriage and come into a full knowledge and understanding of who they are in Christ as a couple. Read More »

Grace that overcomes ALL! 🕇💕🌻

“So he returned home to his father. And while he was still a long way off, his father saw him coming. Filled with love and compassion, he ran to his son, embraced him, and kissed him. His son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against both heaven and you, and I am no longer worthy of being called your son.” – Luke 15:20‭-‬21

Here’s a story about a son who asks his dad for his inheritance way before it’s time. His father grants his wish & he chooses to go far away & pretty much “lives it up”. After some time has passed, he runs out of all the inheritance that was given to him. He realizes he was better off living with his dad because he had all that he needed. When he finally came to his senses, he realized he had turned his back on his father. He chose the life he thought would be much more satisfying than the life he had been currently living only to leave him feeling empty & lost. When he realized what he had done, he committed himself to see go back & ask for His father’s forgiveness. His father had been waiting for him all this time. Once he saw him from a distance, he ran to his son. Embraced him with opens arms & celebrated his return.

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